I've Found You and Now Every Breath Reminds Me Of You..

Saturday, January 30, 2010

8:33 PM

It's halfway through the weekend and a new week is going to come by and that means i will have less than 3 weeks left for proper revision.That is if i'm diligent enough to keep my butt screwed down to study. At least Saturday was satisfying enough by recent standards. For the first time in months i succesfully stayed at home and studied the whole day. But i dont want to be proud of this because obviously i'm still far off the mark. Plus i'll be flying off to Egypt for 2 weeks or so and that will strip off some of my revision time.sigh.ohwell

I miss my dear btw. She went out with her frens yesterday and i think she deserved some time off from all the stress. haha. Love u syg

Friday, January 29, 2010

Santau santai di sunplaza bersama cik adik kite azah syg 8:28 AM

"Do u ever get sick meeting me every single day?" Azah asked me.

"No sayang, why would i ?" i replied

Yeah why wouldn't i ? or more precisely will i?

I know the answer lies deep in my heart and no sayang i would never ever get sick of u.
My love for you explains it all. If i find joy being with you, no matter how familiarised i am to you, you will always know how to make me laugh vice versa. I always have a trick or two up my sleeve yeaah hahahah!
I make sth sound funny even when i least expect it haha.

So i met baby yesterday(oh yeeahh i updated about yesterday only up to the movie part) and we ended up watching 'Santau'. Just knew i could do at least cheer my dear up on her birthday:)

So story cut short enjoyed the movie, satisfactory. Prolly one of the better Malaysian made horror flicks. Actually we were lucky to have picked this one over Thai horror 'MyEx'...

And then today we met and chilled at Sunplaza park haha again to the demise of me leaving for Hadrah but i had to and sayang was sooo nice to have come all the way to the east and go back afterwards alone..feel bad for making her do all this just for me.Thanx sayang ur the best:)
One day i buy u lifetime concession for Bus and MRT k haha.
Eh eh actually i neeed that too cause the new ezlink system is killing me!!

And yeah one more thing, i really need to give some support to my baby and motivate her in any way best i can cos she is a bit afraid of realising shes alr turned 18 haha. Maybe i had that same fear last time. the fear you get when u know the shit load of responsibility you are bound to carry and the required image you have to upkeep that matches your age. I havent go that going myself so i think i have to look into that aspect for my own good.

Bla bla bla, dunno why today got no flow in writing.
Love you baby, toodles..Teehee

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

eggteen baby turns eggteen :) 8:38 PM

Oh yeeahh i've done it again, skipped IBM for the third consecutive time.
And i'm not down with guilt for not being in school, cause i feel i would be better off doing my own revision. At least i know i'm Studying.

I went to the Bank this morning to make a new accountbook and left that place with a heart pain sehh..15 freakin dollars gone to the goods, and thats a lot of money by the way considering im financially unstable these few weeks. Sigh to the max.
While waiting in line at the bank, i learned that 5 people in front and behind me in the Q were Nyonya berkedut. Nyonya berkedut nak draw money , hongbao money and then i realised that Cina New Year is drawing near -_-
Ooohhkbye.

I took Bus 293 from the bank to link me to 168 bustop.
And and and i got pissed off with sth or someone in the bus.
Stupid Driver. Racist Driver.
PRC i reckon.at least he looks like one.I bet he is one. He is Cina.
I'm not exposing my racist side of me here but i'm frustrated by his attitude. Bad service.
What actually happened was when i boarded the bus, he snapped the door close even before i was in the bus. my bag almost got stuck sehh..Walllauuuwwee! #%#^%#^%!!! (censored)

Seriously WTH sehh, then i kinda showed him that i was frustrated but he continued wearing that i-don't-bother face and that made me even more frustrated..tkle angst!!!

On the journey i cooled myself down and i told my anger not to get over me.
Almost fell asleep in the bus.
Then strike 2. He did it agin. Racist move. Nyonyas alighted the bus first. Then came an old Makcik pulling her market trolley as she alighted..and that Kotek Bugger snapped the door before she got off the bus properly!! WTH upgrade to WTF!!! seriously nak kena smack kepe Cina tak mandi drive BUS!!

So i decided to hafal that bus plate number when i got off. Maybe send a complain letter to SBS or sth. This is if im not lazy arr hahahahahha. But wat a start to the day sehh!

In other news, today is my sayang's 18th Bday. I'm uber happy and excited for her today.
I want to meet her and see her smile. And that is why i'm at Civics Library instead of Schooll heehee. But i'm disappointed with myself cos i havent bought her any Gift :(
And it makes me even sadder when i know she is super understanding of my situation. Though im also grateful that she is so nice to me. So, i guess i make my presence a present for her birthday, okbye haahahaha.

I love u so much sayang and i'm happy to get to spend ur 18th with you :)
A year older a year wiser :)
Hope you have a bright year ahead of you and hope that u can share ur days with me in the coming year okayy. Cheers! Happy Birthday!!

Am i living up to my expectations? 2:42 AM

Is it just me or am i just being corny and lazy these past few weeks.
I havent been satisfied with myself.
At least i know i havent.
Or maybe people around me know i have to do more.
Study more.
My baby knows it and she's been doing her part by pushing me to work to the limits.
But i'm blatant stubborn.
Where did i get this kind of attitude?
An attitude i can't even i don't reckon myself cos i know i'll regret it's end-result eventually.

So so so so...
Better reflect on urself Sheikh Muhammad Said
Do urself proud and ur sayang will be proud of u.
It's all in the mind.

(Btw youre not a distraction to me sayang k)

I need to get organized, get that momentum going and go full swing before i really kena swing.
Priorities, one on top of the other.
Get burried under those notes baybeh.

Econnssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U are killing me !! Help me help you and help me help me!
Kbye!

Nonetheless i've been surviving well under pressure.
Living without technology.
It seemed impossible because to me iphone= technology=evrything
but it isn't so bad.
Got cordless phone (it's like hp home version) and public phone.
Like i said, all in the mind. Nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih. Did i get this right sayang?
ha ha ha

and damn i have to pamper this throat of mine before it gets to the point when i would not be able to taste my own food.

And in other news, i have been finally called up for some reservist stint.
IPPT and shooting.
I have done some workout on my own , make sure it lasts till April. Jangan macam ye ye je.
And i will go shoot some ducks and hope i reach marksmanship standards.Tak pernah dapat marksman sehh.
Then and only then i can insyallah enjoy the fruits of my labour in the form of Money baybeh.
Earn some bucks!!!

I miss my dear, and my iphone knows this.Toodles. :)

Teehee

Monday, January 25, 2010

iphoneless 7:45 PM

Everybody needs to be contactable/reachable
It feels like #$@$#@ to be uncontactable
and even worse, to think of all the people who might already be on your call list.
My sms Inbox will explode
I feel funny not wishing my darling good morning sehh
Sigh :(
Thanks ah Technology

THIS IS THE RESULT OF ME BEING OVERLY DEPENDENT ON THE IPHONE
I'M FORTUNATE NOT TO HAVE MY FERRARI TAKEN OFF MY CUSTODY ALSO
pheewww

Though when i think of whatever that is happening, i realise that it's not that bad la.
In the Kampung days, pple relied on primitive methods ; letters and pass-pass message e.t.c, to communicate with each other.
So i guess i can and i should bear with this.
The most impt thing is that i get my message across to the pple concerned by any means.

As for now my baby and me would live and talk in cyberspace.
MSN and all.
Cool.
Pretty cool.
Just one thing, please dont die on me Mr.Internet.
Or i will kill you.
And my baby after me.
So better dont create any unnecessary problem ah last warning!

ok bye
ok hello

Btw yesterday boy fell in love with girl again.
again.
1) At Esplanade, study and bercinta
2) At tekka, eating prata and bercinta
:)

My baby had been craving for Cheese Prata the whole week,
so it was only logical for me to bring her to Tekka.
And yeaaaah finally she got her share of Cheeese prata upsize with egg and free gift plain prata hahahah
Kenyang perut
*Burp!!*

Then i joined my friends for dinner at Tong Seng
I was reaally reluctant because i didnt want to leave my baby.
So i asked her to join us, but in the end we agreed that we shouldnt take the risk of her getting home late.
ohwell maybe next time k syg.

sigh, feel naked w/o my phone
but its okay
all bout the responsibility

I miss you and love u Azah :)
Toodles teehee

Friday, January 22, 2010

Milestone 5 10:26 AM

I'm never going to get sick of thi cutie

Never

Because her smile brings joy to the world

And my heart skips a beat when she look straight into my eyes;her eyes simply adorable;represent affection to me.

Once again we met today and ended up at PARIS RIS park
for an unplanned picnic. And we did not have any picnic baskets with us instead a heartwarming load of great company for each other.
Though i brought my Tahue from home. n also Apollo Strawberry two packet please.

It was a simple affair and as usual we were too busy to keep track of the time.
It was until 4pm that we suddenly remembered that we had to make our move to Hadrah and Concert respectively.

My darling was so much fun today and as the days go by i realise how deeply i am in love with her. It has not only turned into some kind of addiction but also ive already found myself becoming dependent on her. My dear has been so understanding and patient to me up to the point whereby i wonder whether i'm acting responsible enough for my age. There are issues, financial and punctuality amongst others, which i need to reflect on and buck up. Because if i were to be a good role model for my baby i have to find stability in those respects.
Buck up and Tuck in Sheikh!!

In other news, me and my bros found, or in fact re-discovered a chillax place with nice ambience and star-gazing spots and i plan to bring my sayang there very soon. Clue: Man_ _ _
Okla of course anyone could have guessed that its Mandai but this particular corner of Mandai Rd is damn cool wheeeee!!
Hope to go there soon.

Okla i'm too tired to re-read thi post to check for spelling errors so forgive me for my mistakes in grammar or whateverla..toodles

P.S: Gurauan Berkasih and Memori Berkasih still stuck in your mind sayang?hahahahah teehee

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I'm yours ; finally 9:42 PM

Noor Azah/Sheikh Muhammad Said

I love you sayang

Yesterday was again a day to be remembered

20/01/2010

My day wouldn't feel complete

and i would never feel right

if i don't get to meet my dear

So i met her at woodlands Civic Library

after i helped Sam with statistics (i realised i'm far behind revision)

and there she was with her Acer as usual,

pretty and cute as usual

I said,"hi sayang" anddd

We ate at Banquet and talked

and when we talked we really dwell on any topic under the sun

ehm ehem,haha

and we went back to the library

to satisfy our curiosity on the Rihanna Umbrella illuminati Saga thingy

which eventually was kind of a disappointment

because we didnt really understand the whole concept i guess.

But it was good fun being with my dear

side by side watching youtube

(and i liked the Wii rejected games vid very much thank you)

And next to Chinese Garden

Not to look at Bangala's making out but to have ehem ehem

a romantic date together watching turtles.

i thought i thaw a 'Kodomo' dragon. Hahaha

On a more Serious note -_-

Sayang

I can't believe that i would actually get this opprtunity

An opportunity i didnt expect coming a few weeks ago

A possibility above all unlikelihood

a door that brought me to u

I entered your life and i assure you i will never ever leave it

as long as we are fated to be together

and i want it to be forever

because there is only one Azah that i know of

and love

and that is you.

So thanks for embracing me to be your "lawfully" wedded boyfriend hehe

because i fell that i'm the luckiest amongst evry other guy to have met you.

And through this journey

i hope to guide you

through evrything,

in all aspects

and hopefully we grow as we go on okayy

And do not ever feel as if i am always better than you

because believe me when i say that i want and need you

to guide me to

because love knows no status

it is not hindered by any boundaries

and of course AGE.haha

So Let's live our journey together

and imagine we're the only two

human beings left in this world.

I love you Azah and i love u wearing Pink T.

Teehee.

P.S nice or not my edited pic of us hahahahah

Monday, January 18, 2010

Azah 8:22 AM

If you ask me about the love,
I can't answer you.
If you ask me who i love,
the answer is you.

I love u azah

Sunday, January 17, 2010

I already know how strong your forces of attraction are; It's hard to be miles away from u 8:20 AM

16th and 17th - Seremban trip

13,14,15th -spent time with you and getting used to each other's company therefore the 16th and 17th overseas trip was a torturous ordeal for me cause u were not by myside.
IMY abbreviated form of I Miss You
And I MISSED YOU SOOO MUCCHHH ( I have to put this in CAPS cos i mean it)
and hehe so grateful u thought of me while i was there. Two-way rindu i shall call it. Copyright .

The trip was so much fun. I was eggcited that it was to be my first time driving in the Malaysian turf. The mere thought of going on high speed made my heart whooooooo! But darn, driving along the malaysian highway really made me sleepy. And i asked Kamarul to take over my hotseat after Machap perhentian (by the way i like the PAU there esp kaya ones). He utilised my shell 95 fuel completely and cruised my 'Cik KIA' on constant 160KM/H. I dozed off through the remaining hours of the trip. You can call that fun. And that's when i dreamt of you and missed u even more. teehee!

The highlight of the trip was the fruit plantation where we enjoyed the savoury sweetness of Lulian. I was unlucky to have gotten bitter ones but ohwell, im not obsessed with durians that much anyway. My frens and i even had the time to squeeze in an amateurish take of a "Seribu Tahun" as well as a " With you" music clip and of course it was made for laughter, bet u on this hahahah.
And of course i did it also because you wanted to see more of these vids hehe.Will show u the vids pretty soon k sayang.

On a more serious note, i am certain right now at this moment that u have stolen my heart. And of course i want you to keep it and in return, let me into your heart.
You make me complete each day and im getting that itch when i don't get to admire you prettey face.

I really look forward to meeting you and spending time with you more often because that is the only way i get myself excited to live everyday.

You always wanna make me say, "Hey Azah,I love you" and never take back those words.

Your one and only Sheikh Muhammad Said.

P.S Sayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaanng kbyem Oh i bought u chewing gums btw.haha

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Sincere love obscures the darkness in reality; You are my sunshine after the rain 7:51 AM

14/1/2010

VeeVo Vivo City

Was supposed to study but how to when i had someone special by my side who'd always never fail to make me laugh and smile.

Searched aimlessly for a spot at Vivo's rooftop
and settled for a 3hour chillax session together.

The cool calm weather with a little breeze , the best set-up for us to spend some time together..
We had no plans, just that tinge of spark and creativity to make each other laugh at silly jokes..No limit to how much nonsensical lines we each made and no one to care bout how loud our laughter were.
I felt alive , damn certain i did..
And i know she enjoyed herself even though her cute little eyebags were a bit swollen haha(so was mine, minimal hours of sleep)

Marina at Keppel Bay

Then the rain called us to move to a sheltered part of the building,
but we ended at a place which was -_- shelterless. But the it was no longer wet, it was shining once again. I had a nice little chat with her there, then came news which got her worried, and i hope i did my part in giving her the assurance that everything was going to be okay..cos i hate to see the smile on her face being reduced to a frown, though she still looks pretty either way.

And then the clouds were heavy once again and it got us distracted cos we were having the sweetest errm moment together ( i felt as if i was the luckiest person ever ) just like the snippets u see between Spiderman and MJ hehe..

And then i had a serious talk with her, something i had to do, something i told myself i would not want to keep numb about...

Dear Azah, i learned a lot of things about you that only made me fall in love with you even more..
It made me realise that im in a damn complex circumstance but at the same time i admit that i never ever would want to give up. I know that things were not forecasted to be as how it is right now but i am somewhat thankful
thankful of getting that chance of getting to know u better,and i've never regretted this.
There is always a reason behind what is happening to us and it may or may not be in our favour..
We may lay all our hope on one good thing but things may turn for the worse.( Hope i'm not confusing you)

All i'm saying is though i'm in such a situation, i can always hope for things to go my way but we can predict what is going to happen in the next 24 hours.
I have fallen in love with you with the utmost sincerity but i also do not want to be selfish to anyone especially Ratna.
And like ive told you, i do not want to give up easily because this maybe a way i can prove to you how far i'm willing to go.
Your my priority and remember that i want you to be okay and smiling always.
If it is fated that we can continue to this journey together, we will because we as humans cannot challenge fate.
And ohman the burden i pile up onto you, it makes you even more stressed :(
Just want you to relax, relfect and think of how u can move on to the next step.
And hope you don't make that move if you're not ready k dear.
I want you to be my ''teman istimewa" and i want our journey to be sweet. I'll always pray that things will be okay for you and me regardless of how this thing will turn out.

(P.S: ive noticed today that you are an expert bubblegum chewer and what a sweeet girl you are :)

Okie sorry for the long post and you may have to bear with my untidyness..and wonder what song will be stuck in your head today..hmm..maybe Suci dalam debu?

Toodles, Teehee, Love Shakemdsaid

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I see you 5:22 PM

I didn't know that video calling was fun especially when i have you on the other end of the line.

And the best thing is that it's fweeee......

I have technology to thank for this
Because it makes a whole lot difference when i can see your face while chatting.

if only there was a virtual channel or tube or sth
that can make me travel through space and time and be there with you at RP..
heeh

Virtual insanity , yeah that suits the mood
Virtual insanity

You taught me how to laugh once again 8:49 AM

It's 2010 and i think i've finally found reason to welcome it
I don't know why it took me a while
Not that i didnt want to leave 2009
But i think i realised that some things had to remain in 2009
Nonetheless there was eventually a proper closure to the year
And i'm thankful for that
Thanks for the relentless support everyone
For standing by me when i wasn't myself
For helping me identify myself once again.

Today, January 13th
I felt joy and bliss,
Those feelings once familiar to me but turned stranger a few months back
Misery the reason
But R.I.P to all that
Cause i am brave enough to admit that god is giving me a new breathe of life
Or at least he knows i need one

In the form of an angel
Accidenal or Coincidental one may say
But i say that i think theres a reason behind
her presence
cos she makes me forget 2009
and makes me want to look forward to 2010

Allah and Rasul help me get things right
Cos i hope and
want to keep her close tonight
and oh boy i am smiling once again.
To Azah, thanks for coming into my life

"Seindah tiada lagi kau ku ingatkan,
sayang kau hilang
menanti
biar sampai akhir hayat ku di dunia ini

Kau tahu betapa ku sayang padamu
hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Hanya takdir
menentukan ia
oh Belaian Jiwaaa"

Okay bye, Teehee
(P.S ur the only one who reads this blog btw, and i know u like to read blogs, so i dedicate this blog to u)